This blog post is my Happiness Project March summary. This feature has been a recurring monthly tradition since October 2017 when I started my project.
Customarily, this summary is a glorious report about my Happiness Project successes over the past month. Sadly, I will have no such dazzling announcements this time.
My March happiness project was more similar to someone trying to race knee-deep in molasses than a train happily chugging along its tracks.
This is not to say I quit and gave up on my project. To the contrary. I still performed my action steps, at least the ones previously stared. When it came to my March resolutions, I lacked enthusiasm.
In truth, I was a bit overwhelmed and lost. I have no better explanation for my lack of devotion.
I felt “bleh.”
While bleh is no grandiose adjective, in this case, it is perfectly descriptive of my state of mind.
March Happiness Project Themes
I had picked three new action steps for March:
- Wholeheartedness: Song and Dance
- Spirituality: I planned to listen to spiritual messages on a regular basis.
- Work Education: I wanted to review and organize my notes from all the classes I have taken.
Happiness Project March Summary
Results: a big zip.
Song and Dance
As far as dancing, it was an absolute dud.
I was a smidgen more successful in the song department. I created various lists in Pandora and I made it a point to listen to them regularly — almost daily.
I even played jazzy background music during our weekly brunches or some soothing instrumental piano melodies as we gathered at the end of the day.
Why haven’t I done this before?
Hearing old songs I had all but forgotten about was like seeing an old friend again.
Moreover, my family even took a liking to this step. Another plus.
I listened to a spiritual talk once — don’t judge — and even then, I did not even finish it. This resolution felt more like “one-more-thing-to-cross-of-my-already-long-list” than a blessing. Rather than being nourishing, it felt draining.
I did not feel ready to pursue this goal.
Listening for the sake of listening while getting nothing out of it was a waste of time.
While I was not successful with this action step, I have not completely abandoned it. I do plan to delay it to another time.
I did nothing at all with my class notes as I couldn’t muster the gumption — nor the enthusiasm — to pursue this resolution. Before I pursue this step, I first need to figure out where I am headed with my work.
Do I want to increase my craniosacral practice?
Do I want to focus more on the bionetic aspect?
Do I want to pursue writing?
At this junction, I have no clear answers although there are many possibilities. I can do many things, however, I cannot do everything.
Where am I wanted and needed?
As equally important — even maybe more so — what do I want to do? What brings me joy AND fulfillment?
Questions I feel maybe I should have answered decades ago. It feels a tad surreal to be making these inquests at this point in my life.
Even so, I have to acknowledge what is and that this is where I am in my life.